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If I feel that love is fading away….

By: MALABUENA, 10.03.2006, Comments: 6

I’m asking for an advice, not for criticism!

If you don’t have an advice for me you moral, “perfect”, “free from sin” people, keep your opinion for yourself, please!

I have lived abroad for a long time and this site has been my best friend, my only advisor and my only vent. My warmest thanks to all of you who manage it and to those who post in it (apart from the ones mentioned above).

Various circumstances made me run off the rails – one year of misery; I lost my baby; it turned out that my son has unregulated growth. I mean that my confidence reached the bottom. I started feeling pathological jealousy.

My boy-friend and I are not married but we live together for 3 years. I was in an awful depression – taking pills. I quit my job! He warned me that I will feel bad without any occupation but I did not listen to him.

The problem was that I saw complications where there were none and I had illusions in order to create emotions. I started to make evil-minded comments and he stopped sharing, being afraid how I will react.

Then I started kicking up rows out of the fear not leave me. I went out to think, several times during each rumpus. He was standing patiently waiting for me.

I got pregnant – I’m in my fifth month.

But he couldn’t stand all this. Last time I told him that I spit on his love. Now he is the one who wants to leave, while I get better. He tells me that he will wait for me when I calm down because I was driving him mad.

I’m afraid! I know he is within his rights because I controlled his phone calls, his every move...everything.

So he is tired of this. I can’t explain this to someone shy or someone who has not been through this. You can’t stop yourself! You just can’t!

Helplessness, fear, as if I’m going crazy!

We visited couple’s counseling. Now I go on my own. I will handle this! I know it!

MY QUESTION IS – IF HE HAS STOPPED LOVING ME, COULD HE FALL IN LOVE WITH ME AGAIN?

I HAVE THE FEELING IF I LEAVE HIM FOR A MONTH HE WILL FIND ANOTHER GIRL AND HE WILL LOVE HER AS HE HAS LOVED ME. WHAT DO YOU THINK?

My greetings to all the cool people! Be happy!

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