Confused...

I don't knw how to strt.. 2 yrs bck a boy used to lyk me.. I don't even knew him.. wen I came to knw abt him.. I saw d boy.. his name was chinmay.. I dint lyk him at dat tym.. but just becoz of my frndz I got in a relationship with him.. but 2nd day I broke up wid him.. becoz it was soo in a hurry I dint gt even tym to thnk abt him.. soo I broke up.. but we became frndz on fb.. vry gud frndz.. days passed he proposed me again 3 tymes.. but at dat tym I lyked sum1 else..his name ws yash.. so I never said yes to him... After 2 yrs one. day my frnd told me dat I lyk yash but I will nvr get him.. its better if I say yes to chinmay.. I told dem dat I m not desperate to get yash its just ok with me if he was my crush.. but they dint listen to me.. nd dey told me to get in a relationship with chinmay.. becoz he still lyked me...

My frnd told me to.gve him one chance.. I too gave him dat one chance.. I said him about yash.. nd evrythng still he said if I m comfortable wd him he have no problem..I live in hostel.. nd I dint have ny cellphn. We used to talk.only in skul.. again he nvr complained abt me anythng.. the best part of him was his nature.. he was awsm.. He look cute..:)) slowly I strd falling for him.. but as said good tymes never last for long.. as d same wd me.. it ws almost 3 nd half months of our relation.. wen I came on outing I used to talk to him on phone.. we used to fight every day.. I don't want anyone to restrict me.. or ask me to change.. if u feel I need to change for anyone I will change myself.. he always asked me to Chnge.. he always said me I don't knoe d.meaning of relationship..!!

What is relationship..?? A boy nd a gal get commuted.. dey share some feelings for each other.. whether it is fake or genuine.. saying I luv uh to each other.. doing some promises to each other.. dey knoe dat dose. Promises dey will not fullfill.. huh..:/ And I finally I was fed up I broke up once again.. at dat tym I was happy..:)) I was.lyk finally I got my space.. my freedom.. but frankly speaking chinmay never bounded me fem anything..:)) Infct I dint give him d reason for break up.. as I knw I should. But I dint... Wt reason I would have given.. wen I too don't knoe d exact reason fr break up..:/ finally I tried to frgt him..den again yash came to my lyf.. I strd chatng wth.him.. I even get commited with yash for ten days.. after break up I realized.Wt a dumbhead I was.. the person who don't even care abt me..I lyked him the whole one year..I wasted my precious.tym thnking abt him.. after dis matter I thought I will nvr lyk anyone lyk this.. but my promise to myself not.lasted for long.. I strtd tolkng to chinmay once again.. he had changed d skul aftr break up.. just becoz of me.. ( atleast dat wat I thnk.) nd now I tolkd.to him nd with.his talks I can feel he lykes me vry much..now I dunnoe Wt to do.. I hv also discover some feelings for him.. but I dun wanna be in a relation again..!! Nd I cnt avoid himm.. Plzz.help me what should I doo..??? ):)