I ruined it

i never thought that i will fell in love by seeing her just once.. i am staring at her for 15 minutes it felt like time stopped ticking.. she is arranging some papers and left after doing.. and it was the first day in college to my surprise she was in same class as mine..i thought of making her friend but she is very reserved and not even talks nor smiles.. one of my classmate and she were childhood friends asked him to help i used to talk to him daily in phone..

he used to tell a lot about her.. i always thought that he is helping me but besides he is also loving her.. after few days i was mad at her by just seeing her it just felt awesome for me.. it was exactly one year from today i came to know that they were in love.. i was hurt deeply cried alone so many times.. though he cheated me i was never rude at him even these days i helped him a lot.. but i miss my love.. my heart.. i thought of sharing my life with her but i cant do any thing now just wishing them for good life.. i will love her forever