Is this what everyone call as "MAGICAL" love???

It was when I was in class 6, when I first noticed HIM.... He was then in class 8.... 2 years older than me.....

It was at the time of our HOUSE ACTIVITY CLASS... In this period, classes 6, 7 and 8 sat altogether....

My first day of class 6.... and also my first day of day session....tooo much excited.....nervous too because of new teachers and all....

At that time, my friends also got separated....all got different sections and unfortunately, I got the section where no friends of mine were present...I was all alone.

Back to the main incident, from that class, one more period was extended, HOUSE ACTIVITY. It was the best period because in that I got my old friends back. We were able to sit together again....

The first day, first class... we were all summoned in the assembly and classes 6, 7 and 8 all together went there. We all sat in the chairs according our roll no.s... and he sat just beside me.... He was the head boy of classes 6, 7 and 8 and as he was maintaining discipline all over so he dint hav to sit according to his roll no. That was the first time when I actually noticed a boy so carefully..... FIRST TIME....

Daily, the last period we had the House activity class and daily I didn't know why, he came and sat just beside me....very close.....

Days passed by and the day came when my class 8 annual examination got over....

ooopsss! I forgot to tell in this that within this two years, he always sat beside me and every day I just waited for this house activity class, not actually for my friends but for this stranger. Knowingly or unknowing, I started liking him and then oviously LOVE.....

but the best part was this I loved him without knowing him, or his name either. Two years just passed by like a storm...nice one. It changed me and made me believe that love existed.....

Then I was In class 9 and he 11.... Again house activity class... but not daily, only Thursday last period. But he culdnt attain this period every week, because of library classes. Even if he attained, he was no more the Head boy, so he had to sit according to roll no. which was very far from me.....

Still every moment I felt him just beside me.... I truly was in his love....

Then the day arrived when I finally with all the guts I had sent him a friend request and he accepted it instantly.....

We chatted a lot... and the day came when I proposed him, I can remember it was in class 10, dated 12th September, 2012....

My best day and he accepted me.............

So my love life started, many ups and downs, break ups and patch ups.... In this way 6 months went and I finally broke up.

Now the reason behind it, he was very sweet, not at all caring, didn't give me any priority. I was the last in his priority list. When we were in this relation, he forced me to kiss him and also forced me to be in a physical relation. But I didn't. he started torturing me mentally. Then the day came when I finally heard a story which was totally unknown to me.....

When our relationship started, he said to his friends that he wanted to use me and all.... and put a bet on it for money.... #I don't want to say the amount#

When we were together, he also had two more girlfriends.... they were also there only for sex....

wow! great! when I heard it I was just like......

broken

When we were together, everytime we met, he just talked about doing sex and all and even he left me alone, one evening, in heavy rain..... though I always believed him, never argued with him, because I loved him.....

I always admitted the fault, even everytime it was his mistakes...still I loved him.

I started lying to my parents to meet him...... which I never did.... stil I loved him

he abused me in front of his friends.....still I loved him

he even threatened to slap me....stil I loved him

he showed up with different girls in different occasions......stil I loved him

he never admitted anywhere that I was his girlfriend......still I loved him

everytime he saw me in public, he behaved as if I was a stranger.....stil I loved him

yes! I loved him, loved him like mad, loved him like nething and I got hurt

why? god, why? I don't know

now, my life changed.... I don't have ne blive in this love anymore.... still I only love him.... :'(