Moving on is really a hard thing...

i do love him... not only loved him but really love him with all my heart to the extent that i try my best to work out what we have..

this story goes.......

im a fresheman back then when i first met this guy who always the only person in my mind until my senoir year. we met when my friends and his friends made a deal to introduce the both groups to each other and make a huge circle of friends. we went to one of my friend house a make some sort of good time talking and introducing each other. we really have a great time then and since that day happened we always meet inside the campus and usually greeting each other,we get each others numbers so that we came be connected anytime. he first texted me and i accepted him as my textmate.

then after a couple of weeks texting and chatting, he asked me to go out into a sort of date and positively i accepted it. we go out and make a dinner and talked alot about eache other. i almost knew that he already 21 and im only 18 that time. we really had a good time together till we separate and go home.

after that he asked if i allow him to make a formal relationship with him and i accepted it (how will be a fool i am to denied to him) =).. two months past by and we still together until i decided to introduce him to my parents, unfortunately, they didn't accept him and told me that i must broke up with him as soon as possible.

after that incident, i decided to go on to our relationship even if my parents don't want to. we keep it secret to my family. until he give up. i lost my patient tat time and told him that i don;t need him already but the truth is definitely im broken inside.

after that we lost our communication but still we sometimes met half way. i really love him so much that i can't resist to have time visiting our favorite place and miss the time were been together. i admit that after our broke up i become bitter and almost cursed him to my anger.

1 year after....

2 years after...

still i loved him and never forget to think of him every single night. until i realize that being bitter will not make me a better person. i tried to have communication on him and i did it. i tell him all my feelings that have been hidden for almost 2 years. and told him that i will try my best to forget all the things we shared and all the things that made fool again. until now im trying my best. maybe a long time is needed to heal the wounds that makes my heart break.

i told him that."balang araw makakaya ko ulit tingnan siya ng wala ng anumang nararamdaman pa" and i really mean it. that why until now im trying to.

moving on is really a hard thing to do if you really love that person more that you could ever loved. =(

THANKS for reading....