Which one?

Hello,

I have been reading the stories on the site for a long time, but only now have I decided to write mine as well. I am 21 years old, I have been married for about a year and a half (strange as it may seem). My husband is many years older than me, but until recently this was not an obstacle for us.

Some time ago, he began to change, became cold, apathetic, and irritable. Each of my requests was interpreted as a whim and a compromise on his part. Nothing was the same as before. If you're wondering why I'm still with him, I'll explain.

All my life I have disappointed my parents and the only thing they are proud of is that I have started a family. If I get divorced, I will disappoint them again, and I can't afford it because I love them very much. That is why I sacrifice my own happiness. Let's get to the heart of the matter.

In my next request to my husband to go out on Friday night, I finally received a positive answer. For better or worse, I met a wonderful young man at the disco. He impressed me with his appearance and gait. I gathered courage and invited him to dance (my husband never dances, and this is my passion since I was a child). Word for word, we exchanged phone numbers.

Honestly, I didn't expect him to look for me the next day. Our first private meeting was amazing. He was wonderful in every way. We saw each other for a while and it came to sexual contact.

I do not want to say that it was magical, because that would be weak. He later admitted to me that until the night in question, he had never had sex. I was amazed. A man of 20 years and with his appearance, it seemed impossible to me. I didn't understand why he decided to do it with me. And he gently replied that no other woman could attract him like me. After about a month, I was madly in love.

I lied to my husband without blinking. I even allowed myself the luxury of meeting them. To my surprise, they became amazing friends. Circumstances forced my lover to live with us. Not only that, but I think I'm pregnant too.

If you are wondering from whom, I will only mention that I have not had intimate contact with my husband for about 3 months. He doesn't want us to have sex. Now I am faced with the dilemma of whether to stay with my husband, whom I do not love, and disappoint the only people to whom I owe everything or to divorce and reunite with the man of my life? I'm so confused that I don't see the point in anything.

I'm in love and the situation makes me feel guilty. What would you advise me? How would you act in my place?