Why you shouldn't be with me?
by Sheena Rei • True stories • Separation • • 1 comment
Maybe you're thinking right now why I asked you to write an article on Why I shouldn't be with you, strange though it seems, me too doesn't know why. I was staring at this blank page for 30 minutes and I'm asking myself the question and I really don't know what to write cause to tell you the truth I always wanna be with you and I can't see myself without you but then, I must write an article on "Why you shouldn't be with me?" cause it would be unfair if you wrote one and I didn't cause in the first place, I told you that I will write an article too.
As I was doing household chores a while ago, I was aking myself "the question" but can't even think one, when I started writing this article I realized there are myriad of reasons why you shouldn't be with me.
I look at you, the strength of how and what I feel as I watch you makes me hesitate to come closer to you. I long to touch you and hold you close to me, feel your breath as I lean closer to you at the same time thinking of how the way I feel about you would hurt you one way or another. Beware, has often been mentioned when people talk about me. Maybe you should listen. Maybe you should've stayed away.
I am a selfish person, who goes after what she wants. I want you, I need you and I should not. I am everything that is wrong for you, after what I've been through. I am the worst thing that may happen to you. Listen to them. Listen to me. I wan to go a distance and watch you from a far, but I can't or let me stay but not this way. I wouldn't want to hurt you, at some point that is where this is going to.
I am the person who is always right, that will give you a bunch of reasons to prove you she's right. You'll just get hurt. You don't wanna be with her. You don't wanna be with me. I'm stiff, I act I don't care when I feel I'm wrong. I don't always listen, I only hear what I wanna hear and listen to what I wanna listen, and that is not the girl you wanna be with.
Being with me is like constantly making an effort to reach for the forbidden fruit that is perched on the top portion of a tree. Being with me is like defying the rule of every ball game, foul.
You shouldn't be with me because you feel I'm your everything, but your everything is something I am not. Your everything is nothing, and I am nothing. You shouldn't be with me because I wouldn't deserve you, and if I did, I don't know how to make our love even. Your love will always be over mine. You shouldn't be with me because I ask you to write an article with a title of "Why you shouldn't be with me?" with no reason at all and staying with me is like this article no reason at all. You have no reason to stay with me.
So now I'm asking, do you still see me as the person you wanna be with, now that I gave you reasons not to?
February 7, 2013 • by Erich