Love Caused me addictive

my story started about 6 years ago i was 13 just a kid

but i fell in love , i saw her almost every day , she

told me about her love by a mobile message befor i

tell her although i hade the same feeling , after the

time i used that she's a part of my life we was talking

and see each other for 3 years i know she stoped this

since 3 years ago but till now i cant forget the most

happy days in my life even there was another

mistakes in my life , after we sttoped talking 1

year later and i didnt know the reason this time but

missed her alot so i tried drugs and wine trying to

live my life whith out her and forget and lived

alone whith out my family i needed to live alone

,Continued my life so for a year and a half like

that , till i lost alot of my weigh and my face was

saying this guy is bad cuz of my red eyes all the

time , then my family got a feeling that something

is wrong and sent me to Sanatorium treatment of

addiction , i stayed there 3 months i will never

forget this 3 months about 2 months of them i

remembered her every day ,after the 3 months passed

whith month i rememberd her again year and half ago

till now ,but i think she heared about

the Sanatorium ,i tried to talk whith her again at

facebook 1st but i confess that i was fool at the

facebook conversations so she blocked me , 2nd i

tried at place which i saw her , i told her that im

happy cuz i saw her but i saw that she is so

surprised when i talked to her i dontknow why !! i

asked her if i can

see her again she told me times whic i can find her

ther, so i went again to see her و but after she

found me there she cried and told me "sorry not

now" i dont know why too !!! after that i didnt

try to see or talk whith her but now i miss her and

want see her ....

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Im sorry the story is long but i told you every thing to get accurate answers about my questions

why she blocked me at facebook 1st time is the way i talked at the conversations enough to block someone she know well ?!!

why she surprised when i saw her and talked ?!

why she cried and saied "sorry not now" !!!

***Thanks for every one try to help***