Second time around...

wanted to share with you guys my story, about me rose and my fiance cj....

accidentally meet him (cj) on a online chat room, since then we dated on and off.. for 6 years. (yeah six years)..

so since then i got bored with him (cj) on our 2nd anniversary and when on seeing someone new, infact that the was the time that he cheated on me too.. (both of us cheated).

so me and him decided to end our relationship for 3 years, after that i was hopelessly seeing someone who could care more for me.. but i was wrong. i meet another guy he was working on a bar as a bartender (ian who is separated with 1 kid). then just in a snap of a finger we clicked (became lovers in no time). it was on and off relationship too but it was the worst relationship i'd been with. he was a abusive guy emotionally,physically and mentally :( .

he was high on drugs, flirting with some woman and even not respecting my mother which in fact two of us living with my mom and niece.

i thought to myself that there's no perfect in relationship...since i was in my relationship my ex ( cj who is my fiance now) we been hanging out alot...

he was my shoulder to cry on every time my bf was on his high of his time.. i was crying, then i found out that he was having affair with his co-worker. on a bar.

that pisses me off. even his own family knows about it but they don't care.

so since then i was thinking what to do with my life, it was Christmas 2012 i seek god's help i even do some novena for me to enlightened my feelings. after i finish my novena after that night, i dreamed..., i was dreaming that my bf was truly having an affair with his co-worker. i guess god did give me signs.

i ended my relationship with him (ian). even it hurts me alot i need to stopped knowing that it will be good for me.

i seek help of my ex (cj), knowing that he will help me cope my broken heart.. we decided to be together again.

so since then it's 4 months now.. oh wait... its been 3 years and 7 months now.. if its estimate our relationship :)

i am more bless to meet him again, knowing that god really gave me a reason to meet someone new and have my lesson. and now im back to my first love (cj).

i'd learn my lesson alot, it should be equal to both of you to love one another. and more of it don't cheat be faithful to one another.. cause god really saw whats on your heart. im thankful that i found my center on this life.. which is balance with my heart and mind..

now we were planning our wedding next year. and hopefully it will be a dream wedding for two of us, cause we promise to our self that god will be center in our relationship.

hopefully this story i share with u will bring u rainbow after the rain :)