Why does he have to be so adorable...

In 6th grade when we first met,I didn't talk to him as quickly as with my other classmates. During the midway of that year, I got to know him better. He was very mean in like a teasing way..but somehow I found himself falling in love with him. He wasn't very handsome, but to me he was the funniest guy I had ever met, you might say I have a fetish for cute guys?!? Most of my classmates thought he was a bit of a idiot because of his childish behaviors. To me those were what I found was really adorable..sometimes I wonder why I would ever come to fall for him. Around the end of the school year, we decided to tell one another who like. Of course the name he said wasn't me, but one of my good friends. At that time I wouldn't say that I felt jealousy, to be honest I felt that he did like me a tiny bit at least. I had finally told him, well kinda, one of my short guy friends was our messenger. He told him that I like him and he finally said that he did like me a bit. And that was the end of 6 grade....

In 7th grade, he was switched to another class and we rarely barely talked to each other. But when we did, I could feel as if I was talking to the president. My face would feel so hot and I would wonder if I was actually blushing. I remember when I had missed to wish him a happy birthday, so on a week from his birthday I wished him a late happy birthday...what an idiot I was..a week later. Another good friend of mine was moved to his class as well. She told me that right after I wished him a happy late birthday, he went to find her and said \"Joanna just wished me a happy late birthday\" with a smile on his after. I believe as any other girl would, I was happy to receive this news about him. Now that I think about it, he probably figured out I still love him at that time. We would chat with each other at times, about 3 times each month?...I won't lie, but I do miss taking to him sometimes. I wouldn't entirely say that I had given up on him, but I've decided to settle down for now and stop (or try to) liking him.

Right, now I'm i the middle of 8th grade. Yes, I know what most of you, or at least some are thinking. I'm just a 13 year old girl who doesn't know anything about love. You're right...I absolutely don't. Even if he did like me back as much as I like him, we wouldn't get to date. I did promise myself to start dating at the age of 18. I know this isn't want people would call this love, and I know too. I never in this story used the words \"I love him\". I might like him, but it's not love. My year is almost and I'm soon about to graduate and go on with my future waiting for me. I'm grateful for all the memories we had together, hopefully we met each other in the future and share stories about our families. Sometimes I wonder if love exists...I would watch my parents argue and wonder why did they ever marry one another...when I do wonder I remember about him. He is my savior, my escape from my crazy life, as well as music.

Colin, if you're reading this I have to say : Thank You for the wonderful years you brought me in my middle school years and is now still bringing me.

I'm a 13 year old girl and my love life has just started, but I have a long way to go. And I'm ready for new years coming. Thank you for reading my story.