Is my love ture

well i don't know how to start my love story , because my love is still mystery for myself after 6 years... my love started from the first day i saw him. i was 6 years old their was a guy in my class for whom i feel something very strong, i was unaware of any kind of feelings but don't know y he was always on my mind, i want him to be my friend, as life moves on and year passes, we both were in same class, i was a different girl bit a tomb boy but i changed my self for him, so i used to fight with boys, i was not like typical girls, i was unaware of fashion or any style. i used to fight with him, we were like enemies but in my heart i love him, i didn't know at that time, that i am in love with him but in 9 class i understand my feelings but i never express them to anyone even my best friends but then suddenly in our 10 standard he proposes me. and he confess that he also love me from childhood. but i refused his love because of my family's honor but i could resist for long time and i accepted his love then our relationship started, now it is bieng 6 years that we are to gether but i donot why he donot respect my feelings and my weaknesses, i am not special but i want to be special for him but i am not....................... he loves me but still there is something missing........... he tease me, make fun of me.............. he is sturbon, roud, he hurted me alot, many times he tried to break this relation but i never let him go.. i sacrifices my honour, ego, self respect for him but that doesnot bother him.............. but still i love him....... donot why i love him. donot why i love him from the age of innocence.. he is 24/7 hrs on my mind................ i love him . cant live without him. no matter how he hurts me i cant leave him... i love him he is my life.... for him i know em going to suffer alot becuz yet my family is unaware of our relationship....... he is my soul...... he is bad he hurts alot but i love him........ and i will love him till the last breath of my life