I am really confused! Please, help!
by Matilda • True stories • Cheating • • 8 comments
Everything started when I least expected and what happened was something that I could never imagine happening to me!
I was at a company party! Dancing, laughing, alcohol and right now, everything seems pretty fuzzy. I don't remember everything, but I remember enough to have occasional images coming up in my ming that are making me blush.
... Images full of passion and in which I strongly desire a certain man. I am positive that if he were here and if it were to be the right time, we wouldn't have possibly stopped by just with kissing or touching!!!
I have been married for a year and a half, but the man from that other night was not my husband, but a colleague of mine. I can't stop thinking about that! I am trying to figure out why it happened and I keep getting to answers that are not giving me any peace!
I am assuming that everything is due to the fact that I have only been with one man my entire life; my wonderful, loving and serene husband; the only man that I want to be the father of my children!
We have been together for 8 years and I am 25 years old. Maybe this is the reason why; that I am inexperienced, I don't really know! All I know is that I don't want to hurt him, but I can't be possibly be sure that I would be able to refrain myself from doing anything...
I want to stop! But I can't! Everyday I spend a lot of time with my colleague and I am getting more and more attracted to him! After what happened, we “agreed” that what happened there the other night will remain there. But every time I look at him, I get all those passionate images in my head and I just can't stop myself...
I can see it in his eyes that he wants me too, I have no doubts about that! I think it's a matter of time for what happened the other night to happen again, but this time, without having the alcohol as the good excuse that it is!
How do I make myself stop?
How do I make myself stop wanting him and how do I bring back the passion in my relationship with my husband???
I don't want to continue falling asleep next to my husband and to keep thinking about someone else!
Maybe It's just me or are you just confusing lust for love, It's really not about whether you are young or old because relationships are very unique and no one really knows when it starts or end few things are certain, can you love someone a for a life time the answer is yes only because you choose to, can you create a passionate love and make it last the answer is yes but only because you choose to. here's the kicker the truth is all men can be inspired to be the greatest lover ever given to the woman they love when they are believed in and valued. So the man you are attracted too is probably the very man you are married to, and you are just trying to find an excuse to see if your fellow employer has something that your husband didn't share with you or had the chance to explore that side of you, the ball is in your court but the advice is that the grass is not always greener on the other side,
and would you be cool with it if your husband did the same thing to you? My point is that both side are often guilty of crossing the line from time to time because we are not perfect people, But wouldn't it be nice to hold our self accountable and not blame each other for our own choices? leave the pandora box alone and experience new things with your husband nothing like the first time learning each other by exploring options with your husband that is!