I realize my guilt for his infidelity. In principle, his work is such that there are no regulated working hours. He started being late every night, telling me he had a lot of work to do. I kept accusing him of not spending enough time at home, and so on.
After a scandal, he admitted to me that he had another woman, but he did not want to divorce me, and he had feelings for both of us - "unique women", he said. After that, I became depressed and decided to change. I recovered, went to a psychologist, and realized that I could not do without him and that I loved him.
I changed a lot - hairstyle, attitude towards him, etc. and I think I was able to get over what happened. He also changed his attitude towards me a lot - he very rarely works until later, he became more careful, he constantly wants us to dance, have sex in the evening, he tells me that he loves me, etc.
My husband and I are currently in love as teenagers, this impresses everyone around us, and I think we haven't had a better-married life in all these years. Nevertheless, he continues to keep in touch with her.
I have not been happier with him than I am now, and it is the same way with him, but I do not know why he continues cheating on me. He denies that their relationship continues, but I'm sure because I check his phone every night and the last call is always deleted and lasts at least 5 minutes.
I don't know what to do to stop it, but I can't seem to do anything. He must want to end it himself. I don't want to part with him, but on the other hand, it's very hard for me, and I always think he's with her and I don't know how long I can live like that.
Please tell me your opinion about my problem.
Do you think we are an abnormal family? Recommend me literature that will help me understand all this.
What to do next? Should I meet her?