I want him back. But...

by naamjhd True stories Separation 9 comments

I had known this guy since we were little kid. we had crush to each other since then. one day i met him again and since then, we started to contact. we talked, we chat, but we were not officially dating that time. just kinda flings.

After all the obstacles that we've been through, at last we were going out. but after two months, i broke up with him as i thought

I had no feelings for him.. he was hurt by then. after few months, I went back to him and he accepted me. But then, the event recycled over and over again for 3 times. and it was for the same reason: i have no feelings for him. The problem was me, I just made the decision without thinking much. I was so stupid. Now, he has a new girlfriend.. and they'll be having one-year-relationship this September. I'm not over him, i still love him but i wont disturb his relationship. I'll just wait for him to come back to me.

The problem is... last week he told my best friend that he was confused with his feelings, between me or his current girlfriend. I could tell that he still cares for me. So, I gave him a text. we managed to talked, and he didn't gave me much details though on his problem. My friends said that i might have chance with him. I miss him so much, and i want him back. But if i have to hurt his current girlfriend in order to get him back, I don't think I can do that. But I really want him back. I don't know what to do anymore. :(