I want love

I am very confused. I don't know what to do with my life. I have been living with the father of my child for 2 years now, everything happened very quickly and unexpectedly.

We met at a time when I was seeking solace for my broken heart from great but impossible love. I got pregnant in the third month of our relationship, it came to us like a bolt from the blue. He wanted me to have an abortion, but I already had one and I didn't want to take any chances, I told him that I could look after my child myself, I couldn't force him to be a father.

He told me all sorts of things just so he wouldn't take responsibility. It wasn't a paternity test, all sorts of stupid gossip about my family, and so on. He and his family hurt me a lot.

Anyway, we got together, I forgave and decided to try, because of the child. I gave birth to a beautiful girl, we named her after his father, although he doesn't deserve it. And yet, there were still statements that she was not in his name.

We have been living together for 2 years now, he loves the little one very much, he takes care of us, but I miss something very much and that is - LOVE. I do not want to continue to live this way, everything happened somehow by force.

I also want to experience the happiness of being proposed to because the man next to you loves you and you are the woman of his life, not because you are pregnant. I want to see the excitement in the eyes of the beloved man when he realizes that you are carrying his child, the fruit of your love, not to tell me that he is not ready, and to have an abortion.

I want to be happy too, I think I deserve it. I've had enough pain, I want to love!